Adagio e dolce (Glimpses of the Undertoad?)

If rebirth is true, I want to come back as a musician (please?).
And not just as "any" musician, but as an organist.
As a painter, there's nothing I like more than being in the midst of an organic "mess," respecting/feeding it as best I can until "some-thing" emerges, on its own, only to return to where it came from and be replaced by another offering, before it too disappears...
It's this infinite coming and going that leaves traces, traces that ARE the real work.
After decades of dedicated work (http://www.vudici.net/awn/awn_natural_media_th.html), allergies forced me to abandon natural media and led me to using computers (reluctantly at first), eventually entering the time dimension (with gratitude).
It is for me very fulfilling to see that it is increasingly possible, in the time dimension, to find/create the same kind of organic "mess" that was my home as a painter, and to work by ways which avoid the (simplistic) "figure/ground differentiation" and the linearity of intentional doing.
And doing so with music requires one avoids using the kind of knowledge that dissects the experience into parts but rather, trying as best one can to remain connected to the experience which precedes that dissecting/differentiating (Husserl's "to cater to the appearing as it appears").
As Merleau-Ponty mentions, in order to do so, one needs to progress "obliquely," and when doing so, one can never be certain one is doing the right thing, at least not "frontally."
Away from eye-candy and the pitfall of "techno-wow," practicing Art as a privileged way of probing our/my experience ("to make the visible visible").
While assessing this piece (stepping out of the doer's gaze and putting on the/my viewer's hat), I was brought back several times to my recollection of reading "The world according to Garp," and of its "Watch out for the undertoad" ("Den Tod?").
Hence the subtitle (and dedication) of this sketch.
The music is J. S. Bach's Trio Sonata No. 3 in D Minor--BWV 527, its second movement, "Adagio e dolce."
Performed beautifully (in Spa, Belgium) by Momoyo Kokubu (http://www.melophone.be/default.asp?iId=GFFIJJ)